Even at a young age, I knew I wanted to be of service to humanity. Starting off at 10 as a self-appointed neighborhood summer play counselor, I later volunteered as a teen nursing aid, and then shifted to being a dental hygienist for 26 years. I have worked with alternative healing modalities since the mid 70’s.
I also holistically raised four home-birthed children. I was their healing partner using Jin Shin Jyutsu® (Japanese hands-on healing art similar to acupuncture), herbs and homeopathy. I also explored alternative ways to parent my children as I knew I had minimal conscious skills to work differently than how I was raised. I took eight years of parenting classes.
Delving into Healing
The awakening of the repressed trauma started to surface right after the Harmonic Convergence in 1987. I realized I needed more support to deal with all that was being revealed, remembered and felt.
Support systems and connection were essential as healing isn’t done in isolation
Doing therapy and hypnotherapy was essential and life-saving, but not enough for what I was remembering. Studying to be a clinical hypnotherapist in the early 90’s, I decided to learn as much as I could about emotional healing, childhood trauma and abuse recovery.
I helped form a local 12-step group for abuse survivors as well as a small personal group with 5 other women to create safety in discussing our extreme trauma memories and healing process. I also created a 2-day symposium in my community to support survivors of abuse. The creation and participation of support systems were a huge part of staying connected to the world and feeling grounded.
All during this intense early healing, I worked two jobs while going through a very difficult divorce, and seeing my children only part time. But the whole situation did for me what I wouldn’t otherwise allow. It freed up more time to work on myself, give more attention to my inner world, and heal.
The Writing Emerged
By the late 90’s, I co-authored and co-edited, “Multiple Journeys to One: Spiritual Stories of Integrating from Dissociative Identity Disorder” presenting on TV, radio, at conferences for therapist associations and those who survived sexual abuse.
Connecting to Thetahealing® Technique
In 1998, I attended the very first ThetaHealing® workshop outside of Idaho when Vianna Stibal, the founder of the ThetaHealing® Technique, came to Northern California. Almost immediately, I started to teach monthly workshops at Vianna’s suggestion. My journey, through all the levels of ThetaHealing® Technique, can be read here (and then scroll down to Official documentations)
Another Book was birthed
Writing ‘Moving Beyond: The Healing of Trauma of Physical and Sexual Abuse through ThetaHealing® in 2009, was an inspired process of only several months but many years of experience. There is probably no planetary darkness that I haven’t seen or heard of, thus I know all is possible to change. When one goes through this kind of journey and transformation, in moving beyond the limitations of extreme childhood trauma, there is much to be shared.
Healing through Faith, Forgiveness, Gratitude and Unconditional love
In processing and clearing through well over 30 years of complex memories, I know that a healing path has been forged to make it easier for others. What sustained the healing was my deep faith and trust in knowing wherever I was in life, All-that-IS, the Unconditional Love, is, was and will always be a part of me and with me….and everyone! There is nothing greater or more powerful. This is my understanding of non-dualistic spirituality.
I used a continuous release process to identify the memories, the patterns and beliefs embedded in them, and to let go of what I was being taught by those who had hurt me. This was engaging in an active process of forgiveness. I also do continual self forgiveness for any ways I might have acted out the abuse on myself or on others. I give gratitude every day that I am alive to participate in a life of my own.
Gratitude for my Connections in this Project
I’m very grateful to have my Moving Beyond partners to help all of us in the healing of childhood abuse. To add some interesting synchronicities in connecting with Leila and Debbie, Leila lives in Belgium, and two of my grandchildren have their paternal lineage in Belgium. Debbie also has relatives in Belgium.
With Leila adding her wealth of information, pattern connections, organizational skills, computer literacy, cooperative inspiration and healing possibilities to support this project, and bringing in Debbie's expertise as a focused and caring project manager, I’m excited in what is possible, as a team, to move things forward and beyond.
What most people don’t know about me
- I played piano starting at age seven for five years and the cello in the 7th grade, which was bigger than me.
- At 15, I won a semi-finalist position among 500 teens to be a go-go dancer on a local TV dance program. In front of the judges with the spotlight on me while dancing, I froze on stage when I was told to smile. I was attempting to hide full metal braces on my teeth.
- I was in the National Honor Society in high school.
- I was a hippie and came across the country in 1953 Chevy school bus with 2/3rds filled with furniture and the other 1/3rd filled with one single bed, 2 burners, an ice fridge, 2 dogs, 2 cats and a husband at the time.
- I was a vegetarian for 26 years raising my children this way.
- I milked goats, taught myself to bake challa and bagels from scratch, gardened, and canned my fruits and veggies.
- I’ve been doing partner dancing since I was 5. I continued to practice when I was older adding 11 partner dances and even leading some. At 57, I performed on a Salsa team.
- I love to swim in warm oceans and snorkel.
- I have had NDEs (near-death experiences).